Life Is For Living....Life Is Not For Dying....

Interesting how my daughter picks the most interesting times to lay some knowledge down. She took the time today to remind me(out of the blue mind you...it had nothing to do with what we were talking about.)that no matter how sad you might be about situations in your life a person has to do their best to be happy to do something about the sadness...or in a nutshell deal with it.

Somethings in life you can fix and others you cannot fix until you have more resources to fix them. Then there are the things you cannot fix and though that can hurt like hell you still have a life to live.Life is for living, life is not for dying.

I amongst others have had life through a curve in the path we were on. I went back to my books, sleeping too long, and diving into physical labor and avoiding people because I don't want to talk about it and did not want people to have to deal with Matt being depressed. All ways to avoid feelings for a little bit.Of course 3 a.m. knows all your secrets(borrowed from Poppy Z. Brite-Lost Souls.)

So knowing that life is not for dying but for living and that life threw a curve in the path where I did not really expect still fucking sucks ass, but again you never know where that curve is going to take you. It could lead right back to the road you were on , hell it might even be a shortcut but because you are lost you did not know that was a reality. Sometimes you have to get lost to find your way again..

For a little while I may still hide away a little til ready to deal with certain emotions and the reality that is for right now....or I may not...It is no ones fault and I feel sad that some may think I have fallen off the face of the earth or make some sad because they cannot help me or I won't let them. You see there is one truth in my life I have always experienced: It is that I was built to help others and sometimes people help me....they help me more when they find happiness and peace in their souls...but I am mainly here for other people and not them for me That is not a bad thing..except when I fail....Sometimes there is one or two to help , but luckily I am good at rising from the ashes...a little singed( but hey it is better than the condition I used to wake up in.)

So to those that know and love me you always know i rise above somehow and don't worry yourselves over me I am still here...always am...

So to say it one more time...Life is for Living , Life is NOT for Dying...I for one am tired of having one foot in the grave...fuck all the dumb shit lets fuck shit up and have a good life..

MindRiot

P.S.: If anyone who reads this ever needs to talk about things that are killing them inside I am always here to respond.Send me a message or something and I will answer..NO ONE should ever have to go it alone..just because I am good at it does not mean you have to..

MindRiot