Was Going To Say Something.....

As soon as I remembered I have this stupid blog no one really reads and decide to write something I draw a blank...

Life has been the interesting work all night , barely sleep  then do it again...spend very little time with the daughter and girlfriend so they get the insane sleep deprived person that is me and not me...I feel more pity for them than me..yes I have to be this sleep deprived mess but they have to deal with me and wish I was more alive..Be nice if I actually made a shit load of money..

So now I have money to do things but because I work all night and my nights off do not include weekends I cannot do the Pirate and Jacobite things and spend time with my daughter during the winter when she is in school..amazing how you need money but it helps take time away from your family and loved ones and still it leads to very little except a place to rent where you cannot really do what you want and bills and transportation...yet it is better than having no money and no place to live...what a screwed up system where work gets to dictate your family life and yet we have a world in turmoil because the family is a mess...

Night work is strange because it is so hard to get rest due to having family life during the day...and the world operates mostly in the day so that is when you shop, socialize, pay bills, do life business..and yet at night they want you to kill yourself at work knowing all this and pay you very little....interesting sociey..

On The Subject Of The New Reality Emerging.....

   Obviously I have not posted anything in a long time. A lot of it was at one point depression at another point things kept occurring and decisions were being decided upon and a lot of things just happening. And that my friends is called life.

   So what have I been up to, and what the hell am I doing now, and what the hell will I be doing later?Well a lot seems to describe all three questions.

   I am in a relationship with a woman named LaDonna and am in the process of trying to save money for us to have a place together. It is funny it seems like she has always been with me just in the other room maybe or outside in the yard. It was like I could always hear and see glimpses of her and now she is just in the room more often and I can see and hear her more clear...

   I have a real job for the first time in years, of course I am staying up all night playing with boxes and box knives and running around non stop all night..the usual thing I do when I have a Real Job. It is at Target and it will do for right now.It does not provide enough hours as far as I am concerned and in time I will look for something better..

   Unfortunately I do not get to see my daughter enough but summer is coming so I will see her more. I am not really able to go to Pirate and Jacobite/Celtic Reveler things not help out Tam the Hat so this year it seems I will be mainly working and saving money and next year be able to do things. I miss seeing my friends and missing the wedding of Don and Elizabeth at Sea Dogs also sucks..but sometimes one has to live normal mundane life. Of course the going to events will no longer be the means to escape the hell I was living for so long...so that means they will be more fun for me...

    I await to see what the rest of this year produces. I said it was my year and I meant it.It seems the universe agreed with me for once....ha ha ha