In Life Things Must Change....And You Better Fucking Get Used To it...

   Change. The word conjures up so many things, some are illusion, some are concrete realities.The word alone creates fear in some people so strong they cannot move.The action of change will sometimes do the same thing even to the point some people would rather deal in denial and create a reality opposed to what is really going on.Change can be scary and it can hurt and the worst part of it is sometimes it needs to fucking hurt so you can move forward in life.Like re breaking a bone that has grown back together twisted and useless so it can mend strait and be of use.

   For some people change is even if not sought after it is at least dealt with and used to begin something new and beneficial or to get back on to a path in their life that will bring good things.

   Unfortunately or maybe fortunately life has to have both outlooks and a willingness to face fear and pain and loss to hopefully gain peace of mind and progress.

   Things in life change in life if you want it or not.Some change is of our own volition.The desire to make life better to get rid of the things holding us back or damaging us or others.Some change must happen because it must and that it just how the universe rolls sometimes.

   I have had times where I welcomed the idea of change and made it happen.Other times it was not a change I wanted but needed to happen to be able to become a more whole person and let it happen.Most of the time change was something I fought tooth and nail screaming obscenities the whole time until I found out it was not that bad of a thing.

   Right now my life is a mix of changes happening I did not want and changes that must happen for me to be a more whole healthy person for myself and those I love.Some changes are because I needed to do them but spent too much time procrastinating or letting my ego get in the way of truth and self reflection and to stop being such an idiot.Right now there are changes that I cannot put words to yet because they are not fully formed and I do not have enough understanding to do them correctly and that will come.